am blogging from my grandparent's place.
ok, so first week of school went pretty well.
classmates and facis were very nice.
am getting a little irritated at the presentations and RJs we have to do everyday though. :(

night out with munchys yst night.
it has been ages since i've laughed so hard and much.
really enjoyed myself even though i was really tired at first..

and wong jin jyue's being a bitch right now.
throwing a bitch fit even though my parents just got her a new phone 1 week or less after she spoilt hers.
i only got to use an old phone passed down by my dad but you dont see me fucking complaining.
whatever.


time passes so fast.
1 week of school didnt even feel like 1 week.

i always thought that the year we turn 18, was supposed to be the best, wildest, and probably the most memorable and significant year of our life.
true in some ways..
but i forgot that it is also the year we are forced to grow up, to learn and experience.

it really is a big step though.
am i being wilful when i say i dont want to grow up?
that i want to be protected and not protecting.

life.




on a sidenote, my first day of school went pretty well and i like RP's way of schooling. even if that means i have to do modules of subjects i dont like.
i only hope its not the novelty speaking.
anw, i think my team mates for today were really awesome.
but i think my RJ is... really cmi.
am not articulate nor good with words and i cringe each time i reread my RJ.
only hope it will improve with time.


to my dear family and friends,
i love you very very much.

today, feels like reflection day to me.
i keep thinking, and thinking, and thinking..
thinking of everything that's happened, thinking about what i could have done to change things,
thinking about how to make things better..
but its hard. each time i think of something, my fears pulls me back.

family, friendship, relationship, and me in general.
maybe i've been too self centered.. focusing on the superficials and not realising the true meanings..

a simple thing like giving up my seat to an old lady makes me tear.
it got me wishing so badly that more chances were given for others to offer their seat for my grandmother.
life's a circle.. things keeps coming back..
who knows? maybe one of you have given up your seats for my grandmother before?
the thought of it makes me feel grateful to everyone who has shown my family members kindness before.
and its weird, like i may not know the person but somehow, we are connected in a way..

I AM SO MOTHERFUCKING PROUD OF MYSELF.
initially thought my laptop's speaker was spoilt.
and i was hoppping maddd to the point that i wanted to fucking sue the laptop company. JOKE.
but today, i finally solved the problem MYSELF!
hahahaha. though it really wasnt very difficult, but to a person who is a total idiot when it comes to such stuffs, namely me, it is really a big accomplishment. :D
ok and the problem was super retarded. it was basicallly not able to produce any sounds because.... the speaker was set at bluetooth earpiece mode. HAHAHAHAHA.
tell me.. am i a major joke or what?
ok nvm....

just 15 more days till sch start!
im so majorly excited!
looking forward to a life where the laptop is a necessity.
but sadly though, that means i have to quit my job soon.
these past two months have been really enjoyable albeit being tiring at times and having to sacrifice my social life..
i enjoy the company, the work, except the politics.
i honestly cant stand this two face evil woman who is bent on making everybody else look bad.
cant be bothered to elaborate cause this kinda thing is really quite common.
im just shocked at how explicit she is being. wonder what goes on in her mind honestly.
all the same, im grateful for wonderful colleagues. :D

m crazy over the songs swing swing and 1-2-3-4, and im driving everyone at work nuts over it cause i keep singing. :D its alright!
cause i have new favourite songs alreadyyyyyy.. :D

and, im sorry for the previous post.
i know its pretty psychotic and crazy.
anw, i've managed to learn something from everything crazy thats happened.
like making mre of an effort to be closer to my grandfather and family..
life's all about living for the future aint it?


and munchys, thank you tooo.
you people are the greatest bunch of friends ever. :D

ok, im making up my mind whether to eat ornot cause i'm reallly hungry.
so now, i torn between wanting to slim down or to go ahead and indulge myself.
either way, i'll stilll be happy whether i eat or slim down. HAHAHAH
so i cant reallly make a decision.
abit pointless though. HAHAHAH.

aites. im going off. have been taking a long time blogging already
LOVES! :D