October 31, 2007
clare posted at 10:57 PM
im still hoping my hair will grow out SOOON. :D
AND i can lose weight. HAHA
i swear.
after o's, im so gonna..
- shop till i drop.
- get a pair of boots.
- get a dress.
- buy loads of shoes and clothes.. :D
- meet up with all my friends. (:
- eat good food everyday.
- exercise.
thats why im saving up like hell now.
HAHA. torturous. :D
but i will do it for the sake of a good life after O's. :D
clare posted at 8:40 PM
YAYYYYS.
exams going to be over soon! :D
im counting!
6th NOV. :D
just 7 more days! (((:
anyway, math is a sure flunk.
but im happy as long as i dont get f9. :D
its not very ambitious, because i know my limits. (((:
GOTTA STUDY PHYSICS.
cause chemistry is a goner. HAHA
all the best people for the remaining papers. :D
LOVES!
October 28, 2007
clare posted at 1:49 PM
YAYYERS!
i finally got down to getting a blog music!
:D
the bestest song there ever is. :D
LISTENLISTENLISTEN! :DDD
I LOVE LOVE LOVE THIS SONG. ((:
:DDDDDDD
HAPPY LIKE ANYTHING. :D
October 27, 2007
clare posted at 11:59 PM
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clare posted at 10:54 PM
MY HAIR IS A FREAKING DISASTER
AGAIN.
GRRRRS.
my fringe is short like anything luh.
i did tell the woman not to cut it so short.
but i think i must have pissed her off with my many requests and she just SNAP offffff my fringe. )))):
WAHLAO. im sad like anything now luh.
how to go to school for exam? )))))))):
hahahaha.
dont care luh.
I WILL MASSAGE MY HEAD EVERYNIGHT AND DAY, actually, EVERYSINGLE SECOND TO ENCOURAGE HAIR GROWTH. :D
they say it works. :D
HAHAHAHA
haiyo.
MATH and ENGLISH on monday.
scared like anything luh.
chem already lousy like fuck.
))))):
com.sci is so screwed already..
HAIYO.
NVM! just a few more days.
im already planning my post-exam activities. :D
SUPER EAGER LUH. hahahahaha.
i love yiruma. :D
October 24, 2007
clare posted at 8:39 PM
ridiculous.
I AM RIDICULOUS.
clare posted at 5:44 PM
i screwed the chem paper up like anything.
suddenly, the taiwan trip i was so excited about seems so dull.
i feel like i dont even deserve to think about having fun.
im so angry i can stab myself.
October 21, 2007
clare posted at 5:08 PM
im terribly sick of whining about the O's.
this particular post had been written and erased 5 times.
it just isnt turning out right.
im so afraid. that my words might be too..
i dont know.
just that it doesn't have that kind of feeling i want. the impact i want.
HAHHAHA.
which is ridiculous.
im just super paranoid this few weeks.
and i dont know whats the cause of it.
im just super frustrated now.
seem to have lost the feeling for posting when i was so excited to do so just now.
i just hope theres a way to climb out of this big hole i have dug for myself.
foolish me. thats what i say.
October 17, 2007
clare posted at 5:26 PM
Tomorrow marks the start of the O's.
the official one.
ALL THE BEST PEOPLE. :D
hopefully, electricity wont come out for physics.
im super lousy. HAHA.
well.. at least i get to see all my classmates tomorrow! :D
YAYYERs. :DDD
I SO DO NOT WANT TO GO G12 TONIGHT.
but i have got absolutely no choice. ):
haiyo.
i must be steady abit. HAHA.
be game for everything. (:
go with an open mind. (:
byee.
:D
October 14, 2007
clare posted at 11:58 PM
IM PUTTING ON SO MUCH WEIGHT!!!!!"£%£^%"*&($"^%*($£"!!£""£$£^%^%*&(*&(*"!(*&*¬!""!££"£$!!""!!"!"£"$£^%*&
clare posted at 10:14 PM
HELLOOOOO. ((:
ohmy..
THIS THURSDAY IS THE VERY FIRST O'LEVEL paper.
ok. not paper. PRACTICAL EXAM. HAHAHAH
this few days have been crazy!
im so lazy.. and i keep on procrastinating telling myself theres still tommorrow.
and whenever i study i just get depressed at the amount of stuffs i dont know.
GRRRRRS.
but my friends are good teachers. :D
HAHAHAHA.
THANK YOU!
i even learnt how to eat faster because of them.
amazing huh.
im being sarcastic in case you cant tell.
HAHAHAHA.
but they are really good teachers luh. (:
i just want to say.
ALL THE BEST EVERYONE. (:
and i miss you guys soooo. )):
JIAYOU! JIAYOU! JIAYOU! ((((:
October 10, 2007
clare posted at 10:13 PM
& I LOVE FOUR E'007 CLASS TEE!!! :DDDDDDD
clare posted at 9:38 PM
GRADUATION BLUEs.
in a way.
im glad that this wasn't a tearful event. (:
we all had fun.
exchanging gifts and cards. (:
I LOVE THIS BUNCH OF SEC FOURS SO MUCH!the bestest ever. :D
but of all songs, why did our school have to choose auld lang syne?
WAH LAO eh. they could have even picked vitamin C- graduation. i wont mind although its so cliche.
AULD LANG SYNE is just plain weird. HAHAHa.
but everyone were screaming the song at the top of their voices.. :D
& chen yan. im really touched. although the results weren't yours. it pained you to see your friends not being able to get the cert. thank you girl. you made me realise that my results were not only for me. iloveyou. :D
at this time..i guess theres not much i can say.
words would just fail me because what i am feeling now cannot be expressed in words.
im missing you guys so much so much.even right now.
thank you for all the wonderful memories these four years no matter who you are.
and for enduring my craps. :D
my cold jokes and my noisyness. (:
i really treasure each and everyone of your company. i hope that we will keep in touch no matter what.
and that we may all have a chance for a gathering or even a CCHY secFOUR'2007 GATHERING years down the road. :D
i love each and everyone of you. (:
take care and all the best in whatever you do.
and i hope there will be a prom for everyone! hahahaha. :D
LOVESLOVESLOVES.
:D
today is not the final though.
there is still O'level!!
hahaha. and the FIRST paper is in 8 days.
scary uhs. so fast. ):
gotta CHIONG. HAHAHA
but the only people i will miss are not only those on the same level as me.
i will also miss all the secthrees,two and one students.
haiyo.
wonder if this was how the previous graduating classes felt tooo. ):
HAHA.
oh wells.
all goodthings come to an end.
byebye everyone.
&take care. (:
Labels: GRADUATION blues.
October 8, 2007
clare posted at 11:24 PM
OK.
you can actually ignore the part in my post that said i might be blogging less often.
cause i seriously doubt that. HAHAHA
the one thing im super dreading now is the question of will i be able to graduate.
HAHA.
im so afraid my grades will prevent me from doing so.
although there were improvement. they were so SLIGHT.
that even the slight improvement will not be able to land me in a poly.
HAIYO.
and im so scared of books now. ):
the difference between MY grades and THEIR grades. are so shockingly fuckingly big.
HAHA.
im in major doubt.
will the last minute study pay off?
doubt so.
but still, worth a try. right?
HAHAHA. at this point of time,
drastic measures are needed.
second thing im so not looking forward to is graduation.
HAHA.
believe me, im eager to leave the school and never ever see some of the biggest assholes i have ever know in my entire life.
but at the same time.. what about those teachers that have done me so much a service?
those SUPER good teachers..
miss kaur,mr yip, miss wong, mrs peck and a few more..
i will miss them so luh!
and just imagine.
tomorrow will be the last day i will get to go to school late.
to sleep on the familiar tables.
to quarrel with the same teachers.
to play the fool in class.
to make a mess out of the classroom.
FOUR E'007 has been the most united class in the weirdest way ever. :D
in the way we gang up against unreasonable teachers. HAHA.
and the most noisy but full of enthusiasm class.(maybe FOUR F will be vying for that title too. :DD)
HAIYO. i will miss everyone so so much.
and i never thought i will say this.
but i think i will also miss being dragged to mrs sim's office.. quarrelling with MR philip ng. ( second last day of school. so shall respect him. :D)
all our rubbish will be thrown out tomorrow.
i wonder what it will look like.
our class being so empty..
but then again.
every bunch of sec fours and five will come across this seperation.
lets all keep in touch no matter which JC,POLY or ITE we go ok?
:D
i love each and everyone of you!
a sense of nostalgic..
October 7, 2007
clare posted at 9:52 PM
its getting easier..
HAHA.
i should have done this long ago.
so that i can be spared of the bloody heartache.
HAHA.
and i m in love with the song ' when you say nothing at all'
its ages ago.
but its still nice. :D
________
so this actually proves how many wrong decisions i can make.
tons and truckloads.
like SERIOUSLY.
when will i learn?
and as i was reading cassandra's blog.
i saw this part..( shall quote directly. )
'' if someone betrays you once, it is his fault.
if he/she betrays you twice, it is your fault''
i think it makes a whole lot of sense.
HAHA.
and im having writer's block.
cant write anything at all.
and its all so RANDOM.
HAIYO.
i go luh lah.
if not im just going to write even more crap..
and i doubt i will be blogging often.
cause O's are just around the corner.
and oh man.. graduation. ):
but i will be back!
dont want to see this blog fall to pieces. :D
BYEBYE.
& don't miss me. (:
clare posted at 1:52 PM
i would DIE for killer abs. :D
but then again, it justs defeats the purpose of having killer abs.
cause i will be dying anyway.
HAHA
man.
this is so random.
:DD
AND IM PLAYING SUDOKU ONLINE.
HAHA.
i love sudoku. :D
i'm OFF! (:
October 6, 2007
clare posted at 10:25 PM
I LOVE YEO YEE TING.BABE!
you still have us luh. :DDD
i will talk to you soooooon.
MUACKSMUACKSMUACKS.
dont care ok?
it will be ok!! ((((:
October 5, 2007
clare posted at 8:26 PM
im so not in the mood for church.
i know its super hypocritical of me especially when i always yak on and on about how good church is.
church IS good.
but the thing is.. i always forget how good it is when im not there.
make me go. and when i come back i will be in awe of the word again.
and when i really need to find someone to talk to.
I CAN'T.
HAHAHA
so ridiculous.
and i am so yearning for a drink.
but when people sees this, i'm gonna get reprimanded again.
seriously. *pouts*
im feeling reckless suddenly.
reckless in the sense that i can write whatever i want here and not be bothered.
but i know i've got to control what i write.
cause i wont want to quarrel.
but im just feeling so pissed.
some of the angers directed at me.
no. make that MOST.
because i could have gone with norrrlynchoooo.
but i gave up the chance to.HAHA.
and its not moodswing anymore.
I KNOW I DO HAVE THE REASONS TO BE INDIGNANT.
that, my readers. was a reckless statement.
maybe she might flare up.
maybe she might feel apologetic.
but im dont really have the energy to care anymore.
and tomorrow,maybe when im more awake, i might regret these few sentences i have written.
but by then it will be too late.
but since i know the consequences,you might ask, then shouldn't i erase these sentences?
NO. cause its what i feel. and i need to get at least 1/10th of my freaking !"£(*F%&")U(*£C$("K*£I&$N!)"G*$£"(£*&% emotions out before i really tear my hair out and go bonkers.
and trust me. this is only 1/10th.
the other 8/10th is directed at me.
HAHA
Im seriously frustrated at my STUPIDITY.
NOOO. im not going to elaborate.
its something for me to ponder on ALONE.
food for thought. only its not HEALTHY.
HAHAHAHA.
but at the end of the day.
i know its even MORE NOT HEALTHY.
to keep on thinking about what MIGHT happen if i went.
you see. its always like that.
we focus so much on what MIGHT have been that we forget what IS.
so i guess i just want to say that.
i am truly really giving up for the last time.
AND.
no matter what,
i still love you chia ming xuan, yeo yee ting, norlyn choo, cynthia neo and how wei ling. (:
HAHA.
so i wrote so much things and its still back to the starting.
NOPE.
actually one things changed.
and that is. i have truly really given up.
HAHA.
so actually, the front parts ARE pretty redundant.
BUT.. they NEED to be there cause i only managed to de-stress after writing that one whole chunk of redundant craps. (:
HAHA.
although it still needs time getting used to this part of me gone.
but trust me.
i'll be back on my feet before anyone can guess. (:
AND norrrrlynCHOOOO.
ONE BIG THANK YOU.
HAHAHA. i owe you. (:
you might be the only one to understand what is written here. HAHA
LOVE YOU. :D
and isaac, if you see this..
IM SORRRRY.
i would have loved to go.
SORRY. and thanks toooo. :D
HAHA.
trust me.
theres more i can say.
but i wouldn't want to chunk one whole part of me on you suddenly.
HAHA.
first time (i think) that i feel so good after writing a blogpost.
and first time( i think,again) i finally realised how good it is to just yak and yak non stop. on my blog of course. if you knew me in person, you would know that im not a quiet person. and thats an understatement. HAHAHA
ok. enough of me laughing at my own stupid and 'dont make sense' jokes.
my heart feels so much lighter.
maybe i should keep a diary..in addition to the blog. :D
i will think about it.
clare posted at 1:48 PM
FORGET IT.
see?!
it was never meant to be. AHAHA
and i know i know i know.
and yet, i cant stop the emotions surging up in me.
indignant. pity. & pain.
but whats not meant to be will never be.
HAHA.
and i dont blame anyone.
if anyone has to be blamed, its me.
for not cherishing in the first place.
so as i have promised, today is friday.
three words ;
GOODBYE TO YOU.
no more him from now on.
BYEBYE.
and its final!
October 4, 2007
clare posted at 4:34 PM
i seriously intended to go to school today.
but in the morning, could not drag my lazy ass out of bed.
LOLOL.
in my head- im always picturing this super sweet reunion when i see him.
but i know i know i know deep down its not possible.
and i find myself so silly.
i go and get myself excited and scared for nothing..
so now, i have set my heart.
i shall let fate decide.
tomorrow shall be the last day.
if i cant make it, then i guess its meant to be.
but even if i can make it.. it doesn't mean anything.
HAIYA!
FRIDAYFRIDAYFRIDAY. i promise.
gotta go.
studying.
and im so not in the mood.
)):
but wei ling can help. (:
October 3, 2007
clare posted at 9:58 PM
IM BACK! :DDDD
and this is the ninth out of the tenth time i can actually see my tagboard. ((((:
HAHAHA
pathetic like anything..
so anyway..
i was reading tess geritsen's book and saw this part about our DNA.
and it struck me.. are we humans, just necklaces of chemicals?
from the precise shade of our hair to the sound of our laughters, can be distilled down to the chain of chemicals.
so exactly in which part does our soul lies?
what makes us, US?
i seriously do not like the thought of me being only chemicals.):
i guess the way we were brought up, and our surroundings contributes to who and what we are now.
but deep down inside, the only reason we are different is because the chemicals are different.
come to think of it..its like chemical reaction. HAHA!
like how oxides reacts with different metals to form different reactions and bases!
HAHAHAHA.
but seriously, this subject has brought me the conclusion that in one way or other.
we humans are all the same.
THUS! my not-so-new-year-resolution is to try to treat everyone the same. :D
to give them the benefit of the doubt.
HAHAHAHA. which sooo isn't gonna be easy.
LOL. but i can always TRY.
:D
I WANT A NEW BLOGSKIN.
im so utterly sick and tired of this blogskin!
HAHA! (((:
clare posted at 6:14 PM
8 out 0f 10 times
there is something wrong with my tagboard.
SUPER IRRITATING.
urghh. forget it.
i will bear with this irritating tagboard that always malfunction CAUSE.. i am too lazy to change. HAHAHA.
found other super nice songs of yiruma. :D
BUT STILL... my n.o.1 favourite is river flows in you.
although the title is super kuku.
HAHA! :D
still have G12 tonight.
having a headache over what to wear.
dont want to get sent out.
)):
& i swear.
this friday,
will be the last day.
sealed-
my pact. (:
October 1, 2007
clare posted at 11:33 PM
''MOST FOLKS ARE ABOUT AS HAPPY AS THEY MAKE UP THEIR MIND TO BE.''
-ABRAHAM LINCOLN.
haha.
trying to be inspirational.
:DD
WORKING?WORKING?
SAY YESSSS. :DD
clare posted at 5:47 PM
HAHAHA.
i deleted the post before this.
cause if i read the post in future, i will just be reminded of him again.
HAHA.
so R-E-T-A-R-D-E-D. :D
ahling is at my house now. :DD
im supposed to be like studying but i sneaked out to use the com.
HAHAHA
better go back soon i guess. (:
BYEBYE. :)
JINLONG,