September 29, 2008
clare posted at 3:36 AM
am supposed to be asleep.
but im still up at this unearthly time of the night, after spending one hour of tossing and turning in bed trying to fall asleep, i give up.
GG. camp is just a few hours away, and this one silly idiot asked me to accompany her at 7 in the bloody morning for her boyfriends bike prac.
so i cant sleep now. cause even if i were to fall asleep, i will DEFINITELY oversleep knowing myself.
im bored and my mind keeps wandering..
i think avril lavigne is the epitome of
H.O.T.
check
THIS out.
she, is my inspiration to slimming down! :D
LOLOL
nonsense.
am going to read joy luck club now..
i kinda like the ideas put across after reading it for the third time even though i found it boring the first time i read it.
okaysss..... studyyyyy!!
laterrrrr. :)
September 28, 2008
clare posted at 1:07 AM
was supposed to go study.. which i honestly intended to do so..
but after listening to the song, and thinking alot,
i realised, that i needed to blog. privately.
2008,
is indeed an eventful year.
so many things has happened and have changed.
me especially. and i reckon it isnt for the better..
and o level stress is hitting on me so badly..
but i dont understand myself sometimes.
why am i not doing much about it even when i know i should..
i hope 2008 wont mark the start of my downfall.
i. have. to. work. hard.
no kidding.
and after the O's all over, i gotta find a
stable job. for once.
to buy the many things i desire.
and lets just say, the list is endless.
September 27, 2008
clare posted at 11:39 PM
am just days away from my second chance to redeem myself.
make it or break it.
hopefully, it isnt the latter.
my heart is beating so fast i cant catch my breath.
i should go now.. and bury my face in my books..
3 days of study camp from monday to wednesday.
awesome. time for some serious mugging!
the fear is so much stronger this year than last year..
and the pressure is suffocating me.
the need to please and not disappoint everyone is edged in my head.
reminding me over and over again..
OK.. thats enough said.
now, for some action..
September 25, 2008
clare posted at 11:27 PM
had a belated lantern festival celebration at the top of the carpark with
MUNCHYS! :D
and so sad.. :(
munchy became donut empire, and donut empire CLOSED DOWN. wtffffff.
anwwww,, WE HAD LOADS AND LOADS OF FUN. ahaahaha.
making bonfires and playing nonsense..
:D:D:D
and OMG.
im damn happy now. :)
cause boyf is coming back from tekong tmr!!
after 5 longgg daysss.. :D:D:D
CANT WAITTTT!
ahahahahaaha.
BYE WORLDDDD!!!! :D:D:D
gonna stop my nonsense before i burst from excitement! :D
September 24, 2008
clare posted at 5:05 AM
i feel, my heart sinking so low.
i need, reassurance.
i feel, like dying.
clare posted at 12:17 AM
I'm feeling effing down.
dont ask me why.
im feeling so screwed and i so. do. not. like. this. feeling. one. bit.
:((((((((((
September 21, 2008
clare posted at 5:02 AM
i dont know why..
but all of a sudden, im feeling so down..
feeling the need to cry, to shout, to let it all out.
if seems like everythings hitting on me now and im trying so hard to fight it. to fight it.
im feeling exhausted. why do i feel like its all going down again.
cant even figure half the reason for this shitty feeling.
or perhaphs, i just dont want to.
screw this shit.
screw me and my fucked brains.
September 19, 2008
clare posted at 12:14 AM
OKKKK! i just cut my hair and i look effing horrible!!
i resolve to not make rash and STUPID decisions regarding my hair from now on! :(
AHHHHH... i feel so down... :( cause my hair absolutely sucks to the core!
i seriously think its karma though.
cause i laughed at sy's hair the other day..
LOLOL..
September 18, 2008
clare posted at 1:45 AM
16.9.08.
happy first month baby. :)))
i love you more each dayyy!! :D
boyf surprised the hell out of me on tuesday. :D
called me at midnight and asked me to open the door..
as i was only clad in an oversized tee and underwear, i rushed to find my fbt pants and opened the door... to find a huge card and a heart shaped cake with a single candle outside my doorstep.
i was shocked and touched beyond words.. :D
he really is the sweetest thing on earth. :)
met up with pam, cyn, sam and xiu hui on on wed.
pam is back from australia for a holiday! :D
outing with them made me feel like nothings much changed. still as bimbotic as ever. ;) esp. cyn! hahaha!
it was nice catching up with them and it feels just like the sec one days..
sam is still the same old sam.. i doubt she will ever change. ;D
but pam has become less prudish. ;) HAHAHA! thats what sam says. :D
and cyn? oh wells. its pretty obvious. ;) managed to catch up with her individually after the rest have all left and found out so much that i didnt know..
okkk.. next wed we are most probably gonna meet up again for a rollerblading and drinking session. :)
and MUNCHYS!!
i miss you guys! :((
lets meet up real sooon! :)
September 4, 2008
clare posted at 11:09 PM
OH YES! :)
managed to caught 4bia after MUCH persuasion! HAHAHA!
screamed a couple of times in the theatre.
damn embarrassing! but its a damn good horror movie.. quite scary. :)
and fuck prelims! :(
i am screwed like fuckkkk!!
urghh. whatever!
oh wells. at least its been 2 enjoyable days. :)
JINLONG, 