May 30, 2008
clare posted at 12:05 AM
To the world:
Take a look at me, so you can just see how perfect you are.
May 28, 2008
clare posted at 12:22 AM
im trying to get a grip on my emotions.
and im looking up again. :)
i realised, i'd rather everyone else be happy! :D
i also realised, there are certain things in life i can live without.
and has never been a problem up until recently.
so, i will continue life as it is, and take things as they come. :D
ending this post with a big shout out!
WEST SIDE RULES. AND SO DOES THE EAST. ;)
also the north, south and central. :D
LOVES!
May 26, 2008
clare posted at 12:57 AM
May 21, 2008
clare posted at 2:14 AM
i dont know whats happening to me.
i dont know who i am.
i dont know what i am doing and i dont know why i am hurting.
i dont understand what are the tears for.
i dont know who the anger is directed at.
and i dont know why i never make sense.
i cant't shake these negative feelings off.
i dont know want anybody to find out but at the same time, i hope somebody will notice.
but life's not always about me.
what do i do to make the pain, the pain go away.
clare posted at 1:54 AM
i, always thought i was the clown, the joker.
but i realise now, im the joke.
the butt of the joke.
i am messing up my own life.
not only mine, but also my mum's, my dad's, and my sis.
me, monster.
i never knew this was how much i horrify them, scare them, nor give them hell.
i. hate. me.
all along, i thought i was always right.
but as it turns out, im wrong. forever wrong. never right.
i not only ruin my own life. i had to bring others down with me too.
im the world's most selfish bitch. the world's most self centered ass. the worlds most terrible daughter. the worlds most horrifying person.
and im fucking running out of adjectives to describe myself.
i never knew..i never thought. i could never imagine.
i suck. like fuck.
i wish i was dead. at least, they wont suffer anymore.
im sorry. for the fuck ups. and for the misery.
when i read the post she wrote, the one reason i didnt blew up was because i recognised the truth in them.
i AM the monster.
the only reason i was angry, was to be shown the truth.
and the truth hurts. reality sucks.
its ridiculous i know.
to feel hurt when im the one actually hurting.
L.O.S.E.R
cant even study. i brought, and bring shame to the family.
ME.
CLARE WONG JIN LONG.
aha.
THE JOKE OF THE CENTURY.
no shit.
May 20, 2008
clare posted at 12:32 AM
just because my reaction wasnt what you expected or wanted, dont take me for a sleeping dog.
every post of yours is becoming more fucked up and incredulous.
its taking all of my self control to not fucking walk to your room now and punch you.
learn to do what is good for you. if who i am is what you state, then you should know not to fucking piss me off.
you are always right. im forever wrong.
yes im a disgrace. and you can study.
im the devil of the family and you, the angel.
but do you think i honestly give a fuck?
JOKER.
one last thing.
i dare you. to say things STRAIGHT TO MY FACE.
May 14, 2008
clare posted at 10:23 PM
ok. i seriously think that 2008 is a terrible year for me.
i think its called karma. ):
seriously. because last year has been the best year in my whole 16years of existence and i didn't deserve it.
so now,im paying back two fold for whatever i enjoyed.
nothing has been going my way this year. this sucks ok?
SERIOUSLY.
am pissed with life.
at this going, the next time i will experience sucha good year will be when im 30 years old.
WOW. that rocks man.
aha. ok no link. :D
damn crap luh.
HAHAHAHA.
ok.im feeling high now. LOL.
BYEEEEEEE.
:D :D :D
May 13, 2008
clare posted at 8:23 PM
i swear, being sick is the worst thing that can happen on earth.
URGHHH.
i can pull all my hair out from frustrations.
LOVE,this is karma. LOLOL.
you know the most ridiculous thing?
my stomach's muscle is cramping from all the coughing and sneezing im doing.
LOL.
dont feel like typing anymore. LOLOL.
off to drink milo! 3rd cup for the day. LOLS.
BYEEEEEE (:
May 11, 2008
clare posted at 2:04 AM
YO YO YO WORLD! :D
i swear the NYJC band concert was jaw dropping awesome! :D
the first half was by the 'gu zhen'. although abit cheena, they were seriously good. HAHAHA
and they round up the first half with a drama by the symphonic band. and guess what?
our own FERRAN TAN was acting! no shit. HAHAHA
DAMN FUNNY. he should like win the best actor award. seriously. HAHAHA! he is my new idol yo. :D
and almost all the actors were from cchy. LOLOL. imagine that!
second half of the concert was by the symphonic band themself and seriously, the soloist flautist was BRILLIANT. there was a song and he was the MAIN THROUGHOUT yo. damn. he is THAT GOOD!
LOL.
AND AND AND.
guess how they round up the whole concert?
with none other than the GREAT JAY CHOU'S SONG!
SHAN HU HAI!
LOLOL. they merged the gu zhen with the band and the effect was FUCKING GOOD.
HAHAHA. and now, im addicted to the song again. :D
one of the best concert i've been to. :D
ok! im off to repeat the song over and over again. :D
BYE WORLD!
LOVES!
May 4, 2008
clare posted at 11:55 PM
OH AND YES!
MUNCHY's OFFICIAL DAY. (;
260408LOVES!
:D :D :D
clare posted at 9:53 PM
YOYO! :D :D :D
havent been blogging for ages because its been a busyyyy but FUN 2 weeks. :D
WEST SIDE ROCKS YO.
in your face BIATCH! :D
WOWWEE. the past few week has been hectic but way exciting! LOLOL
NO SHIT. (;
and YESYESYES! im so freaking looking forward to 28th JUNE! :D
theres going to be a formal event and im freaking freaking excited. LOLOL!
and i dont fucking know what to wear. HAHAHAHAHA.
me and love are going to wear gowns (; KIDDDDING YO.
its not that serious luh. HAHAHAHA. im just too fucking excited.
LOLOLOL. :D
okok. ENOUGH.
ANW, MONDAY IS THE DAY YO!
dont know what to expect but..
HEY! its back in your face whatever you have done.
let everyone see you for who you truly are.
three words.
I. DESPISE. YOU.
JINLONG,