July 30, 2008
clare posted at 7:21 PM
Time pass so quickly..
to me, it feels like i just took my o level results last month and the despair i felt then, still exists today..
and now, the big O's coming in 2 month.
and that's too fast..
im so scared so scared it will be de javu all over again.
history repeating itself when i get my results next year.
the need to cry, but my pride preventing me from doing so.
ah wells.. maybe i'm just thinking too much..
i gtggg...
am going jogging with bev. (:
BYYEEE WORLD.
July 28, 2008
clare posted at 10:09 PM
forever is a long time away.
Its alright, i'm ok.
i think god can explain
i believe im the same
i get carried away
Its alright, i'm ok
i think god can explain
i'm relieved i'm relaxed
i'll get over it yet,
the scent of vaseline,
in the summertime
The feel of an ice cube,
melting over time
The world seems bigger than both of us
Yet it seems so small
when i begin to cry,
its alright, i'm ok
clare posted at 2:24 AM
and yes. my eyebrows are a disaster.
HAHAHA.
dont ask me whyyy..
when you see me, you will know..
and threading is a hell of a motherfucking pain in the ass.
but im still gonna do it once every few weeks with pelyn. :D
clare posted at 1:13 AM
I deserve whatever karmic retributions i will receive in time to come.
im doing unto others what i would
hate to be done unto me or my good friends.
God, is this a test?
because if this is, im failing fucking miserably.
July 25, 2008
clare posted at 2:34 AM
i can't stop repeating the same song over and over again! :D
i guess when im in the mood, im gonna change my blogsong again. LOLOL.
warmness on the soul by avenged sevenfold. :D
its a damn old song and its fucking good! :D
ahaha.
physics lesson was hilarious today because there was a mistake on our ws.
cork was spelt as cock. ;)
and the couple that was a JOKE.
made me laugh so hard i couldnt take it.
complete fuckwits.
hahaha!
havent been blogging bout daily random stuffs for a long time and i kinda miss that feeling.
too much is happening all at once..
and its so irritating.
oh yes. am gonna trim my eyebrows tmr and im so fucking scared i come out looking like a dick..
if i do, im not gonna step out of my house until it grows! hahaha. joke!
alrights... im off to continue watching Alot Like Love.
i havent finished... lolol! like how slow can i get man..
BYEEEEE :)
July 24, 2008
clare posted at 1:10 AM
ballet is freaking awesomeeeeee!
wished i learnt ballet when i was younger. :(
ITS BEAUTIFULLLL! :D
oh so fucking random now
cause im in a fucked up mood currently.
whatever.
my fucking headache's driving me nuts too!
and the song's stuck in my head!
ahaha.
whatever!
BYE STUPID WORLD.
July 22, 2008
clare posted at 10:04 PM
LOVEEEE, i enjoyed that talk with you yst. :D
though emo some parts may be, i still enjoyed it! :D
and my promise will always stand no matter what! :D
LOVES!
and Pawan kumar and yeo yee ting, if you ever need to talk either, im here. :D
SO WHAT IF 2008 IS A SCREWED UP YEAR.
i still have my friends. :D
I LOVE YOU ALL DEARLY! :D
July 20, 2008
clare posted at 11:26 PM
Walk blindly to the light and reach out for his hand
Don't ask any question and dont try to understand
Open up your mind and then open up your heart
And you will see that you and me aren't very far apart
Cause i believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way
Violence is spread worldwide and there are families on the street
And we sell drugs to the children now oh why cant we just see
That all we do is elimate our future with the things we do today
Money is our incentive now so that makes it ok
But i believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way
I believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way
I've been seeing Lisa now for over a little over a year
She said that she's never been so happy but lisa lives in fear
That one day daddy's gonna find out she's in love
With a nigger from the streets
Oh how he would lose it then but she's still here with me
cause she believes that love will see it through
And one day he'll understand
And he'll see me as a person not just a black man
Cause i believe that love is the answer
i believe that love will find a way
i believe i believe i believe i believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way
love will find the way
love will find the way
love will find the way
please love will find the way
please love will find the way
My new blog song! :D
'I believe' by Blessed union of souls
i wanna find the piano score for this badly but cant seem to get it anywhere online! :(
its a fucking meaningful song. :D
July 19, 2008
clare posted at 7:42 PM
sec sch is the best thing that ever happened in my life.
give me back the stability in life.
i dont ever rmb life being this difficult.
im tired of everything now.
why is everyone, everything changing..
i just went to the blog of 1 of my good friend and i was really disappointed to see her change so much.
its not so much as what she has done but her attitude,
to the world, to herself.
i really dont like what i saw, but then a thought striked me.. who am i to judge when i myself aint any better.
and i wonder if thats how ppl who cared, felt when they saw what i've become..
i realised im a lousy source of comfort. i cant say the right words at the right time and do the right things at the right time.
i wish, i could blog everything i wanna say out instead of having to speak in riddles.
i wish, things were simpler..
clare posted at 3:55 AM
Realised that im not the only one who feels down.
almost everyone else is too.. and that sucks.
To me, sec sch is the best thing that ever happened.
i've learnt my lessons regarding matters of the heart.
and i'm setting new resolutions.
door locked, and fence built.
Now, when i see that bastard, im so angry, i just want to punch him and scream at him
for being the male chauvinistic pig that he is.
To him, the world is his stage. His life, the script. and him, the protagonist.
fuck hell no!
are you gloating at the way things are now.
i've seen the smug looks you give and i would give anything for you to wake your senses and to wipe that perpetual smirk off your face.
now,when i look at you, i dont find any of the reasons i had when i liked you anymore.
You, are nothing but reduced to ashes in a part of my brain now.
and after this post, i feel this big load off my chest..
to finally let go of an emotional baggage, feels good. (:
July 16, 2008
clare posted at 11:25 PM
i got influenced and am damn into romance movies now.
they are awesome! :D
watched 'a walk to remember' 3 nights ago and loved it. :D
watching ' a lot like love' now so.. bye.. :)
July 15, 2008
clare posted at 1:08 AM
i have this really fucked up feeling now and i dont know why.
cant get to sleep even though i tried real hard..
tomorrow is the chinese listening o lvls and i feel so fucked.
urghhhh.
like whatever.
im off.
July 13, 2008
clare posted at 10:06 PM
Things will be fine real soon.
trust. have faith.
July 12, 2008
clare posted at 4:07 AM
This is a post dedicated to someone whom i love, but still, quarrel and fight with all the time:
i just want to say, you really arent that bad at all. if anything, the fault lies with me. for making things at home, hell. although we do have our differences some times, in fact all the times, we still have our good times. and if god gave me a chance to choose someone else. anyone else to be my sis, i wont pick anyone else, but you.
if people dont know how to appreciate you, its their fault and problem for not seeing what a nice girl you are. dont change yourself just to suit others. you are perfect the way you are. and there will always be ppl who will love you for who you are. we cant expect to change ourselves just to suit everybody who comes along. but of course,we do have to listen to constructive advices that are right and makes sense.. stop blaming yourself for everything.
probably i will regret typing this post in days to come. (which is the next time we will probably quarrel again.) but right now, i think this is the right thing to do..
July 10, 2008
clare posted at 1:04 AM
Practice makes perfect
Practice makes perfect sense to me.
I've become what a mother wont want in a daughter.
And i have done a few things i regret.
But practice makes perfect
practice makes perfect sense to me.
Wake up, first light hearing you calling out
For your criminal court, then you fled the scene upon being let free
Conversation ensue
And i wanna do so many things to you
Sit back to sit, you insist you're ahead
Sit back to sit, yeah that's where i can feel it
Practice makes perfect
practice makes perfect sense
I've become what a mother wont want in a daughter
And i have done a few things i've regret.
I've become what a mother wont want in a daughter
And i've done what a mother wouldnt want , what a mother wont want in a daughter.
Practice makes perfect by Cute Is What We Aim For
CUTE IS WHAT WE AIM FOR IS MY NEW FAVOURITE BAND YO!
THEY ARE GOOD SHIT.
go listennnnn!! :)))
July 8, 2008
clare posted at 11:19 PM
Just one step more to hell.
July 6, 2008
clare posted at 1:24 PM
I'm too fucking lazy to blog for now.
sorrrrry.
be back when i feel like. :D
hahaha.
LOVES! ((:
July 2, 2008
clare posted at 8:36 PM
CHILLLL YOOO.. :)
life cant be that bad anw.. :)
ANWWWWW, i think i am so damn fucking pro!
with 5 alarm clocks and 40 over miss calls i still can oversleep.
WOW! i think i so fit the methaphor 'sleeping like a dead log'.
LOLOLOL....
oh. and chinese oral exam today was a killer!
conversation was about the economy and i know no fuck about it!
holy shit. and how the fuck do you say GST in chinese.
NICE!
time to say byyee to chinese grades..
clare posted at 2:34 AM
why is always that when i start being able to have fun, to forget, shits just keep coming up.
i wish i can say im past caring. but its not fucking true.
im so sick and tired of every shits thats fucking happening.
just kill me and get it over and done with.
July 1, 2008
clare posted at 11:38 PM
and yes. i ALMOST forgot about 28th june. ;)
as expected, 28th june was a FREAKING HELL LOAD OF FUN! :D
we all enjoyed ourselves alot. :D
shall upload pics real soon. :)
LOVESS!!! :D
clare posted at 10:38 PM
i have a kitten! :D :D :D
that is, if i can convince my dad to keep it.
GLUCKS to me! :D
AND
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TEE RUI WEI! :D :D :D
MUCHLOVESSS!
JINLONG,