i, always thought i was the clown, the joker.
but i realise now, im the joke.
the butt of the joke.
i am messing up my own life.
not only mine, but also my mum's, my dad's, and my sis.
me, monster.
i never knew this was how much i horrify them, scare them, nor give them hell.
i. hate. me.
all along, i thought i was always right.
but as it turns out, im wrong. forever wrong. never right.
i not only ruin my own life. i had to bring others down with me too.
im the world's most selfish bitch. the world's most self centered ass. the worlds most terrible daughter. the worlds most horrifying person.
and im fucking running out of adjectives to describe myself.
i never knew..i never thought. i could never imagine.
i suck. like fuck.
i wish i was dead. at least, they wont suffer anymore.
im sorry. for the fuck ups. and for the misery.
when i read the post she wrote, the one reason i didnt blew up was because i recognised the truth in them.
i AM the monster.
the only reason i was angry, was to be shown the truth.
and the truth hurts. reality sucks.
its ridiculous i know.
to feel hurt when im the one actually hurting.
L.O.S.E.R
cant even study. i brought, and bring shame to the family.
ME. CLARE WONG JIN LONG.
aha. THE JOKE OF THE CENTURY.
no shit.
JINLONG,