September 30, 2007
clare posted at 10:01 PM
NEHNEH.
pawan just reminded me that we have only one week left in school.
one last week that we can play and have fun together in school.
time pass so quickly.
man. i think i am missing everyone already.
))):
clare posted at 9:10 PM
NEHNEH!
CHEM LIKE MAD THIS FEW DAYS. :D
hahaha.
with bao zhen, ahling and joel on saturday.. :DDD
and alone today. ((:
i haven't been able to control my anger and frustration this few days.
little things pissing me off like anything.
and its not PMS.
cause my menstruation isn't even anywhere near.
i guess i owe an apology to people who had a taste of my anger.
SORRY.
(:
and HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY CHAD. :D
we are always here for you.
take care boy. :D
oh well.
i am going off. (:
byee. :D
September 28, 2007
clare posted at 11:27 PM
today's church service taught me alot of things..
god has a plan every single time.
:D
the movie was really inspiring.
WILLIAM WILBERFORCE is my new idol.
:) :) :)
he taught me not to give up.
that no matter how bad my results may be in the end, i still must press on.
he inspired me greatly.
he had the courage to do what noone else dared to do.
he stood up for the slaves and fought for freedom in a peaceful and ingenious way.
and john newton taught me not to be stuck in regrets.. to move on with life.
that with god, all things are possible. :D
AMAZING GRACE. :D
September 27, 2007
clare posted at 10:01 PM
OKOK.
seriously. all those emotional posts are damn dull.
i should stop.
HAHAHA.
and i think, its the way you think that makes you feel the way you are feeling.
if you want to be happy, then the happiness will come from your heart. :D
HAHAHA.
ok. and seriously..
FOUR E'007
class tee is super duper nice!
hahahaha. DUH. of course. ;)
but im serious lah.
although it is quite plain, its STYLE dude.
hahas. :D
and as i was walking home today, something super duper funny happened.
HAHAHAHA.
there was this guy walking in front of me and i was just commenting on the ugly colour of his crumpler when he just suddenly slipped and fell down.
i could not stop laughing even though i tried cause the timing was JUST RIGHT loh.
HAHAHA.
and the person beside me was also carrying a crumpler. (super ugly one at that. :D)
and he asked me not to say his crumpler was ugly cause he did not want to fell.
seriously, that set off another spurt of laughing gas.
URGHH. i feel so bad now for laughing at that anonymous person.
but it was really funny luh.
ALRIGHT I GUESS. :D
i gotta study.
GOSH. less than 25 days.
CIAO.
:DDD
clare posted at 9:09 PM
i seriously dont know what is wrong with me.
feeling so overwhelmed and vulnerable this few days.
doubting myself and everybody else.
emtions rising up and hitting me.
and i get super frustrated at myself.
can do one freaking math question FOUR FUCKING TIMEs. & still get it wrong.
like wth?
i seriously give up.
September 25, 2007
clare posted at 10:16 PM
clare posted at 8:50 PM
today must be like the worsest day in history.
self-reflection.
i really should.
words failing me again..
consequences does not involve me alone.
dont need any more salt rubbing on my wounds.
seriously.. am i just being over-sensitive or are you the insensitive one?
i seriously give up.
whats the point..?
September 24, 2007
clare posted at 9:02 PM
turmoil of feelings..
seiously.
sometimes people can make me really pissed without even trying to.
been really snappish the whole day.
HAHA.
well. sometimes the people i snap at really deserve it.
HAHA.
but still. i guess i should stop this moodswinging.
:D
clare posted at 8:43 PM
with less than 20 hours.
im screwed.
September 23, 2007
clare posted at 9:11 PM
lantern festival just brings back so many memories of last year.
felt a pang in my heart as i was playing candles.
time pasts really fast.
and i marvel at how much things have changed , not in a good way.
i guess changes are inevitable.. but i cant help but sometimes feel that i would be better off without all these unecessary changes.
but..what to say?
its not my position to make decisions for others.
anyways. drum lessons this few days is BORING.
its back to the basics cause of the newcomers that joined us.
but they are super cute luh! hahaha. especially that eurasian boy.
think he is only about 9 or 10 yrs old. HAHA
hanging out with younger people makes me feel so old. =X
ahhs. but thank goodness for jerrold. LOLS. (:
and im still super in love with yiruma.
man. this must be the longest crush i have ever. HAHA.
ok not even funny cause that man must be like 30plus.
god. but the way he plays the piano.
gorgeous. (:
but JAY'S THE BESTEST PIANIST EVER!!! ((:
art canvas has to be completed by today.
man. feeling the stressssss.
DARN. & prep wrk must be the most troublesome thing EVER.
am so sick of art right now.
trust me. after this whole thing is over, im NEVER gonna draw an eye again. HAHAHA!
2 more weeks to graduation and 4 more weeks to O'level.
time is getting shorter.
my chem and my math.
ARHH.
physics is DEFINITELY A GONER.
lols.
i gtg.
my canvas is calling. =.=
September 21, 2007
clare posted at 11:36 PM
ok.
i seriously dont know what is wrong wth me.
been losing my temper at every little things.
snapping at everyone.
ahh. im sorry people.
really dont know whats up with my snappish attitude.
))):
CLASS TEEEE SOON!
anticipating. HAHAHA.
and the class video is super cute luh!
hahas. wonder are they having fun at the school lantern festival.
HAHA.
i did have fun at church though. ((:
today was ALL THINGS K!
MAN. the korea dress we all had to wear was nice..
hahaha. but i looked super kuku.
and SERIOUSLY.
converse shoes dont go well with korea traditional dresses. HAHAHA!
its back to ART the whole day tomorrow.
MAN. have to be focused.
just a few more steps to completing it.(ehs. at least i hope lah)
lols.
im sooo tired this few days.
stayed back every single freaking day to do my art.
well except for thursday that is. HAHA!
alright.. gotta go.
its 12. i cant post anymore. ):
BYE. :D
September 20, 2007
clare posted at 9:35 PM
ASSHOLE! (:
i forgive you from the bottom of my heart!
HAHAHAHA.
cause of that super nice msg.
:D :D :D
and PAWAN KUMAR SINGH. (:
i love you so luh.
hahaha. you must be like the bestest friend on earth. (:
thank you!
HAHA. happy like anything.
and i will keep to my promise. (:
cross my heart and hope to die.
:D
clare posted at 5:07 PM
PRIDE.
leads to downfall.
the straight road to destruction.
assembly today was FANTASTIC!
the drama was really funny.
but this irritating bastard made me really pissed.
WAHLAO eh! suck then suck lohs.
like anybody wants to be your INITIAL like that.
seriously. LOOK AT YOURSELF lah.
people have got limits. don't step over the boundaries OK.
my one big bad decision was to even notice you.
spoil my whole assembly.
was just one step away from kicking his big fat ass.
GRRRRRSSS..
i cant think of what to draw for art at all. )):
my mounting board is EMPTY.
no ideas at all.
and this coming tuesday is the deadline.
i'm so screwed. ):
redundant actually.
can do without it..
go figure.(:
im off. (:
BYE!
September 17, 2007
clare posted at 9:52 PM
ok.
prelim results were crap
; as usual. ):
and seriously,i've had enough of the teachers trying to scare us and give us nightmares. HAHAHA!
arhs.. and math is giving me such a headache. ):
dont even know where and how to get started..
poor norlyn, chen yan and vincent had to endure my endless questions today!
SORRY and
THANK YOU. (:
& physics is such a goner.
HAIYA!!
got to stay back in school
EVERYDAY to do my art..
DARN. im running out of ideas.
PLUS! i'm having a terrible headache. GRRRS.
SUPER IRRITAING.
hahaha. and i keep on ranting about o'levels.
enough of that. (:
on a lighter note,
i baked a cake today. ((:
welllll.... at least sam and ming xuan were baking..i was more busy playing and creating troubles. (:
but the cake turned out really well. im serious. (:
HAHA!
and im always struck by how beautiful sam's house is.
darn. there are a million and one ideas running in my head on how i would decorate my room if i had such a huge house. ((:
i know.. its all wishful thinking.
but
being optimistic is a virtue. (:
and its the
westlife and
backstreet boys craze all of a sudden. HAHA!
all the old songs coming back. (:
NICE! ((:
AHHH.
i better be going off to find inspirations for my art. (:
BYEE!(((:
September 16, 2007
clare posted at 8:12 PM
HAIYA!
im still crazy over my piano. (:
been practising for hours everyday,it drives my family maddddd.
:DD
and MUCH THANKS TO JOEL!
he found so many so many piano scores for me from the movie 'secret'.
super pro! (:
thank you so much. really appreciate your kindness. hahas. (:
watched 'secret' for the gazillionth time.
and i still cant get enough of it!
ARHHS. this has got to stop.
im going crazy over it. (:
learning how to self-study at home.
its difficult. because theres so much things i don't know and i'm over-reliant on others to be there to teach me.
and i can't do that anymore.
I NEED TO DO MY OWN GROWING UP. (:
and the textbooks a good enough substitute. (:
besides,theres always the phone.(:
& its still YIRUMA and only YIRUMA. (:
clare posted at 7:54 PM
September 15, 2007
clare posted at 10:38 PM
JUST BE YOURSELF!
:DDDDDDD
clare posted at 9:38 PM
I HAVE THE SECRET VCD! (:
:D :D :D :D
HAPPY LIKE ANYTHING. ((: hahaha.
i can watch it EVERYDAY and not get sick of it. (:
I LOVE IT! (:
thanks mum and dad. ((((:
the vcd came with a poster and a coaster.
i am SO NOT going to use the coaster lah!
hahaha. dont wanna put my cup on his face and dirty it. ((:
SENTOSAed today. ((:
AND DID NOT GET DARK AT ALL. hahas
beceause there wasnt any sun. ):
but it was loads of fun. ((:
hahas.
and i am still in love with the song..
river flows in you by YIRUMA!
man! he is so bloody talented luh.
OK! im off to watch secret. (:
byeeeeeeeee. ((:
September 13, 2007
clare posted at 11:02 PM
RELUCTANCE.
the key to the heartache.
let go and all shall be fine! (:
outright lie.clare posted at 12:35 PM
ITS THE END OF PRELIMS! (:
but this marks the starting of O'LEVELS! ):
dreading it like anything.
AHHHHH.
time pass slowly. ((:
pleaase..?
& i finally know how good the feeling is to read and enjoy a book sloooowwwwwly. (:
i used to rush through my books wanting to know the plot and ending ASAP.
ahh. but i finally realise how nice it is just to read slowly..
good books like HARRY POTTER , 'for one more day' by Mitch Albom and 'name the baby' by Mark Cirino deserves to be read many times through..very thoroughly. (:
and im suddenly falling in love with my piano all over again.
its weird..
ohwells. im off. (:
September 11, 2007
clare posted at 9:43 PM
clare posted at 8:29 PM
not a year and i am up to my 294th post.
like how seriously pro is that? HAHA!
although there were times i really did felt like ending this blog though.. cause i feel like it is not able to portray what i really feel and think. but it might just be my language problem. hahas.
but it holds fond memories.. loads and loads of them.
although,some i would rather forget...
but still. whether good or bad..they are a part of me. and i guess.there will be a time in the future when i will look back and read my previous posts with fond memories and cringe at the childish things i said and did. HAHA.
ahhh. but the one thing i REALLY REALLY dont like is my blogs url.
NB. it looks damn freaking retarded lohs. and without meaning. HAHAHA. but i find it super troublesome to change link and ask everyone to relink me again..so im BEARING with it.(:
and i guess making mistakes along the way is how we all learn.. no matter how big the price is in the end..
pastor once said.. we reap what we sow.
it then hit me really hard..its true.so true..
so many times..i have heard that phrase..but never has it gone into my head.
perhaphs it hit me many times harder that day because i was feeling down..
but anyway..i realise its true..
i reaped insolence. and see what i got back in the end.
it was my fault. but everyone had to pay for it.. if it was only me..it would have at least been much better.
i reaped laziness. and now i have to work dunno how many freaking times harder.
dumb like anything..
& until now. theres still him in my mind.
even though i told myself no.
ages..and ages..
just how long is it going to take..
AHHH.
when will i actually start thinking and doing what is right for once..
but ending this blog post on a happier note. (:
i think i like my reformated com now. HAHA.
i can always find new pics. (: create new files. and have ppl send me new songs. ((:
thanks pawan and eugene for the songs!. ((:
oh wells.
im off. (:
have yakked enough. im tired. ((:
Labels: REMINISCENCE
September 9, 2007
clare posted at 9:37 PM
40 days left to O'levels.
ok.
im screwed like fuck.
September 7, 2007
clare posted at 11:28 PM
GREAT.
and i thought rui wei had a VERY NICE SURPRISE for me on her blog when she told me to check out her blog yesterday.
GRRS. you ninana.
hahaha. (((:
RULES OF THE GAME: each players of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. people who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end,you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks! (:alright.. here i go..1. ehs. this is lame.. but.. i dont like friendster. HAHA! because i feel that there are some creepy people that are not worth making friends with.lame like anything.. i know..2.i LOVE LOVE LOVE food. HAHA! but im always whining about putting on weight. but STILL EAT ALOT.3.i secretly love math and chem. although i suck big time at them. IM SERIOUS. i feel that they are quite fun.*shock.horror.* (:4.i have a thing for matching underwear sets and lacy bras. (but not those AH-MA kind ALRIGHT? ) (;5. im super emtional.6. i DON'T leave my house without make-up unless i wear my specs.. even a tiny bit of eyeliner can do. (:7. i LOVE books. but i always forget to return my books on time. so my library card always gets banned. which is SUPER IRRITATING.8. i like horror movies and visiting all the 'haunted places' ALOT. but i am super scared of ghosts.9. i like singing. (: but cant sing in tune. xD 10. im a WEIRDO. (:next 6 victims.(((:MING XUAN! xDDCASSANDRA (: pay-back time. xDCYNTHIA! sorrrry. hahaha. (: BAO ZHEN! (((: SAMLEE! ((: XIUHUI! wahahas. (:
done!
lame like anything..but yar. ((:
racked my brain like anything can?!?!
hahas.
thats all. ((:
clare posted at 11:05 PM
HAVENT BEEN ONLINE FOR AGES.
)): was pissed with my dad like anything.
NB! he reformat-ed my com without telling me leh!
then i lost all my pics and songs.
and i was sad like anything.
using the com after that was so depressing that i just did not want to use it anymore.
but felt that i was missing out on alot of stuff so cameback today!! (((:
I AM AN UMPIRE FOR TOMORROW's AMAZING SINGAPORE! ((:
hehes.
i was pleased as punch when pastor casey asked me to be umpire luh!
(:
i will try my VERY BEST to be an IMPARTIAL umpire.
LOLS. that doesn't bode well. (;
JIAYOUS DELTA AND MARLINS! ((:
and stupid ruiwei sabo-ed me. GRRS.
(((: off to do the weird quiz. ((:
BRB. ahahaa. ((:
JINLONG, 
