din go to sch today.
woke up wif muscle ache all over.
nd the headache stil there.
slept like a pig all the way till 11.30. den woke up. bathe. nd went to sch.
to take my handphone nd book back.
den at the same time.xuan pass me my report slip.
FARKs.
horrible results. oh wells. ames nd randy owe me 1 buck each. coz i bet wif them i failed everiting.
thats the onli gd thing that came out ofit.
u seriously dun wanna noe how much i got.
blardy hell. i tink i beat the whole sch result.
all u gotta noe is i might veri well be the last among the whole level.
STUPID.
nb. u bet im angry at myself. i am.
i m so god damn farking ppisssed at myself.
hell. seriously. no ppoint lerh lahs.
its WASTED on me.
geddit.
this time. if im studying. it aint becoz i want to.
its coz im gonna farking prove to myself nd U that i BLAARDY CAN DO IT.
im speechless.
god damn it.
fark.
the last thing i wanna be is a failure. a loser..
words are wasted on me.
no amount of speech can get me working unless i wan to. nd i cant afford to wait animore.
IM SORII. to those i have let down.
im sorry mum nd dad.
i wonder how do i get her to sign that thing. that piece of shit.
gotta face up to reality. nd its just hitting me so hard.
everitings going wrong wrong wrong.
and its all my fault.
i love u.. ting nd xuan. thanx for everiting.
nd 4e. im sorry. about my crappy grades.
its time for me to buck up.
im sorry everyone.
JINLONG,