damn. i duno wat the fark is happening. i just. urghh. feel so messy suddenly.
my 100%? i tried. i reali did. but NTHS farking happening.
i m giving my best shot but everything is still a disaster as ever.
i just dun blardy understand why.
everiting is so farking messy. including me.
no concept. no plan. jus wat the fark am i doing?
making a mess.thats wat.
DON'T LET OTHER'S PERCEPTION BECOME OUR REALITY.
HAH.easier said than done. i m feeling overwhelmed.YES.thats wat it is. i just miss hiim so blardy much. but theres nth i can do. i just wan to give my best shot nd make FourE NICE. but its not blardy working.
FARK FARK FARK FARK FARK FARK FARK.
iim feeling blady irritated. at MYSELF.
my STUPID DUPID msn nick can be so cheerful at times i cant blardy understand why.
FARK EVERITING IN THE WHOLE ENTIRE WORLD.
nd now. i cant bloody express myself in my blog. wat m i trying to do.
useLESS FREAK. yes. tats wat i m.
i cant do this.i reali cant.
to believe that i can actuali study nd pass my O'lvls is plain WISHFUL thinking.
how did i get that confidence. pls find it back for me. i swear it ran away wen i din notice. maybe it decided to give up nd find a new owner wen i was decorating the class.
ND FARK THOSE UNCOORPERATIVE PEOPLE IN THE CLASS LAHS. PLS. this is ur blardy last year. can u pls just blardy spent abit of ur time to do smting. WILL U DIE FROM IT? just becoz sm of u din attend the WORKSHOP it doesn't mean u have a reason to be "un-motivated" ALRITES? nd those hu went to the WORKSHOP. u noe WAT IT MEANS BY 100%. we cant do this w/o the whole class effort. pls. help...
but if u reali dun wanna. den forget it.
i give up.
norlyn choo din come to school today. i missed her bytchnes nd her laugh. :( she could oways tok to me. nd cheer me up. miss her so so much.
JINLONG,