haish.. now is 3:40am.. cant fall asleep!!! so was sian..decided to blog..just write crap lohhs.. hmms..yar.. feel like making a private blog!! hehes..den will be like everyday's secret diary!! hahas..den hopefuli,wen i die,smone can find it..yea?? lolls!! crazy.. haish.
hmms..listening to casting crowns now..yea..they are good.. hahas. christian rock..hmms..but have been listening more to the likes of marilyn manson nnd korn coz they are LOUD nnd can distract from alot of tings..so mani tings happen..this 2 mnth?? yar. god noes i m not good nnd nvr was good with words.. so mani tings i wanna say out..type out?? but can't..coz i can't find the appropriate words to describe.. yar..then is like just fell like doing so mani tings lohs. nnd guess wat?? i have began to find the courage to do things i nvr dared to in the past. lols.maybe coz the fear of death is not there anymore bahs.. hmms..ii wanna train..train for just in cases.. lolls.. stamina to be stronger..me to be stronger.. to be able to fite..yea.
falling back into my loves for music lerhs. hmms..dun understand why.. yea..cant find the comfort i cld in the past now.. trying to find that back..
m i reali changing? yea.. if i ever do,pls tell me. ii find dat i smile less often?dunno lahs..
hais..suddenly feel that the world is verii selfish..self-centered.yea.both uu nnd me. dunno how to describe y ii feel tis way..but daily happenings can prove to uu tis statement is true..yea..
-Does anybody hear her? can anybody see? or does anybody even knows she is going down today. under the shadow of our steeple..with all the lost nnd lonely people. searching for the hope that is turned away in uu nnd me..does anybody hear her?can anybody see..-Does AnybodyHear BY CastingCrowns.
Misses nnd lovess.
ii <3 my baobeiis :) 184
JINLONG,